SHUDDER AT SHOULD

Dear Re,

Please listen to me 

Less intensity

More flexibility

Not so anally literally

Taking so much so seriously

Working your brain deliriously

Dilate your heart = more peacefully

And girl, have more fun then it flows easily

But what do I do I get so

Triggered when beautiful messages are shared with a should

If I knew how to completely cut this trigger I swear I would

Working to see each time presents an opportunity 

To live out why it means so much to me

To listen beneath the words.. someone’s’ truth is being reported 

Acknowledge their intentions to inspire, encourage, help, be supportive

I investigated the many varying uses in the dictionary

Maybe we interpret this word differently

So let me try and explain that might add clarity

Because beneath my frustration also lies a melody

That sings of celebrating intrinsically motivated autonomy

It’s my way to live out Buddha’s advice “to be lamps unto yourselves”

Meaning to only accept as Truth that which resonates with each self

I often interpret “should” as someone believing they know another’s highest interest

While we share what has worked for us and helped us, we can’t be another’s compass

So to get so angry when I read or hear it, is me being painfully contradictory

I really do not want to be the Word Police using power to promote misery

It’s my chosen way to live out with my speech that we all have a choice

Avoid any pressure presumed when hearing my voice

I am curious though care to fill out a questionnaire?

Which words would you prefer?

Would you be willing to………?

OR

 You must do……!

I want to inspire you

OR

I require of you

You have to…

OR

You can choose to…

You should…

OR 

I believe this will benefit you…



Words have power on perception 

And can influence your source of motivation

From the Outside 

OR 

Inside 

Where your soul resides

I feel so concerned; I really want people to be as receptive as possible

To the insight, idea, or suggestion you are offering without any obstacle

 I told myself a story that people purposely reject my suggestions just to test me

Or they see no value in them and go out of their way to do the opposite and reject me

And therein lies my fear of failing to live out my purpose and everyone hating me 

Trying to fill the shoes I broke in before but don’t remember ever wearing, F@(k Me!

Tried so hard to find the magic peace formula to hand out and get everyone on board with me

Realized there are so many formulas to be found and this is way bigger than me

We are all rowing our little boats out to board a mega ship to alchemize all our flavors

Brewing all of our freak flavors together to make a love potion we all can savor